Andrea Joy Arales Alingalan

2011-03-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

Surprisingly, I'm okay. I'm fine. My heart's alright, I guess. Because there's really no point being sad. What's done is done... Time will tell when it'll all be alright.

For now, my mind's made up. I'm going to bring myself back to reality. Perhaps, it's a wake up call? "HELLO!!!! AJayyyy, wake upppp! Get a grip girl!" Yeah, something like that. Hahahah.

& so studies comes first.

"Lord, hold my hand along this rocky road ice-cream journey"

2011-03-04T19:49:00.002+08:00

1st quote of the day:

"There are two ways to live your life.

One is as though nothing is a miracle.

The other is as though EVERYTHING is a miracle."

2nd quote of the day:

"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate. It is our light, not darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented, & fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be?"

2011-01-01T14:23:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR FIFOWL!

2011, here I come.

Lord, may I be a better child of yours this year & beyond. Thank you for the great 2010.

2010-12-25T03:14:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

& Happy Birthday Jesus

Thank you for coming down to save us.

I'm waiting for your second coming. We're all waiting.

I love you Father.

5th year, HERE I COME!

2010-12-17T18:54:00.002+08:00

You could almost hear the hearts of many students in the hall as they waited for their names to be called out. It's results day... After more than 2 months of studying, non-stop examinations & more than a month of vacation, there they were, shivering. Anxious. Each in their own world of prayer.

A small briefing was held before the time came for each of them to finally receive the results of their labour. I was the second to be called out. With cold & sweaty palms & trembling legs, I walked to where my Form Teachers were & sat in front of them. For some reason, I couldn't get the wide smile off my face. I had that excited feeling all of a sudden. As if I knew in my heart that I would be happy even though right that very moment, anything could have happened. Pass or Fail. Mdm Jayanthi finally spoke with a smile on her face, "Hi Andrea, great to see you again! Don't worry, relax. You did very well." She handed me my results slip & I saw the grades I got for each subject. I wanted to count my total points but I was still too excited to get my brain working. I kept counting, "12 points. 12 points" But I was unsure... I didn't believe it at first. Fortunately, Ms Tan, my other Form Teacher confirmed it for me. Yes, I was right. 12 points! Unbelievable. I wanted to cry & jump & scream & laugh & go ballistic all at once but all I could react was a "yiiiiii."

I am eligible for Sec 5! I am eligible for sec 5! & what's more fantastic is I got 12 points! When I took my Preliminary results before our Nationals, I got 17 points. Who would've thought I could get 12 points!

I was so overjoyed I felt like I could thank God all day long! I not only made myself proud but I made my parents & my older brothers proud :D

5th year, HERE I COME!

P/S, Thank you Lord! Thank you because you've been so good to me. You've been so faithful. Despite the many heart breaks I have given you, you still blessed me in so many ways I could never thank you enough. I love you Lord. Forever & the most...

2010-12-05T15:43:00.003+08:00

I'm doing awesome here in the Philippines. Every single day, hanging out outside with my childhoods friends. Even until 2am in the morning. hahahah. Having the toot of my life(;

But everyday here is me getting closer to results day. ARGH!

2010-12-01T11:35:00.002+08:00

Philippines babehhhhh!

&whoo, it's hot here. 30+ degrees!
Good weather to surf(;

I miss youuuuuuuuuuu. Yes, youuuuuu.

14more days.

2010-11-26T20:12:00.002+08:00

Our first picnic together & it was great.

I'll never get tired of her.

I love my Besteey.

P/S, today, I helped my eldest brother at his work place. The lil kids were sooooo cute! Dancing & shaking their hips so actively. heheh! Awesome experience!

Thank God for lil & talented kids(;

2010-11-22T13:29:00.002+08:00

I'm in love

When we were kids, i've always admired you but you never looked my way.

Everyone teased us, but we were just kids.

There's no such thing as love when you're just kids.

We were just best friends.

As we grew older & years passed, we met other people.

Fell in love with other people.

Yet, we were still around each other because we stayed as childhood best friends.

But on 2010

Everything changed.

It's now you & I.

& We're happening...

2010-11-20T20:54:00.002+08:00

Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows Part 1, naise! :D Awaiting Part 2 next year!

Welcome back YOSH!

Our childhood best-buds clique is almost complete(;

2010-11-18T21:27:00.003+08:00

Last day of work tomorrow. Then one week of going out? Then back to the Philippines for vacation! Then finally... CHRISTMAS! :D

@hiddenmoments, @nishthefish, @sketchedkisses & @hellokismet agrees with this:

Not only girls who are 13 & under are not allowed to cuss or use any way at all to say those ugly words, really. Even through pictures. Posts. Qoutes. Whatever... but as well as us. Everyone actually.
It's really not cool. You know what, it actually means that your vocabulary isn't good enough. LOL.
It's sad for us because you're our 'lil girls. & we know you girls look up to us... but you don't hear us saying them right? You don't see our blogs with those words, do you? Hm.
We had to inform them. We're sorry, but that's the consequence.

2010-11-15T16:39:00.002+08:00

Sickyyyyyyyyy. I am sickyyyyyyy! :S

'cause of the heavy rain yesterday, I ended up doing my Malay B O level exam with sniffs & the achoos. Can you believe it? I was totally drenched yesterday! Like seriously, from top to bottom. We were in church & I was in jeans and a nice blouse but it got ruined. Ha ha. I'm not the only one who got wet though. Practically almost all of us in the youth. We smelt like rain & old unclean clothes after that. EEK. :D But it was fun(; Going back & forth to help my friends like a superhero! heh.

2010-11-12T22:34:00.002+08:00

I said I smelt it... but you said it's not you.
I'm not stupid.
I stopped talking to you, the moment I learnt about it.
I never looked at you again after that moment.
Then you sent me a text saying you're sorry.
We tried not to make it too obvious so we wouldn't affect the rest.

I could feel you looking at me from across the table
I could see you looking at me from the corners of my eyes.

Then when we were all about to go,
We didn't even hug goodbye.
Like we always do...

I hate it when you lie...
Especially about this.
Especially since I've started letting you hold my heart.

but hey...
I'll never turn my back on you.
Even since we were kids, I never did.

2010-11-11T20:41:00.003+08:00

Hello(;

I've been working a whole lot this week ever since the sale has started. Nonetheless, long hours means more pay & higher commission! I love my part-time job & the friends there, but it's really very tiring. Shoe-retail is harder than it looks & there's more to it than meets the eye. I've already calculated how much I've earned. HAH! =B Kanchong!

It's not new to me... but this time, there's something more. I just can't figure out what that is.

2010-11-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

I got the job! Second day of work & getting better at memorizing the stupid article numbers, looking for where the exact ones are & getting used to climbing the ladders to reach the very very very high shoe boxes at the top.

I've got bruises on both my shin because of the ladder! TSK, oh well. It's all worth it. heheh.

2010-10-28T20:41:00.006+08:00

I spent my whole day looking for a job once again but this time, at West Mall located in Bukit Batok. Faiqah accompanied me (as i have mentioned on my previous post) before heading to IMM for her final interview.

We had fun asking different shops if they were hiring & laughed at the many different reactions when they said no or when they said they need full-timers. Most of them gave the I-don't-give-a-toot-look while others gave the dummy face of the year. It was hilarious!

I managed to fill up the application form to work in Gaurdian while Bossini & Giordano wanted me to call their office branch. When I tried Bata, the Manager was in & so this was how it went:

Me: "Hi. Are you hiring, because i would like to apply for a job here if it is possible."
The Manager: "Okay, well, are you still in school?"
Me: "Yes I am, but it's the holidays now for me."
The Manager: "N levels or O levels?"
Me: "N levels, sir."
The Manager: "so you're 16 now?"
Me: "Yes, I am."
The Manager: "Is this your first time then?"
Me: "Yes, yes it is."

& here came the weirdest part because I totally forgot that if I would work here, I would have to do this...

The Manager: "Are you afraid of heights?" (gives me the curious & witty face)
Me: "Wha... Uhm. No. I'm not afraid of heights" (still giving the best smile I could give even though I had no clue why he was really asking that at that point of time)
Suddenly, the Manager walks to the back of the store & gestures to me to take a look at something.
I moved towards him and then he asks, "Can you reach that?" pointing at the shoe box at the top of the shelves.
I thought he wanted me to use the ladder in front of me & get the box right then & there but i had yet to answer his question.
Me: "Yes... Ha ha. Yes, I can." ( that's true!)

Fortunately, he didn't make me do it. I didn't want to do it yet.

The Manager: "Alright then. Actually, I do need more people because we are having a sale at the first floor of West Mall in November & I do need people to help me conduct it so..."

& the story goes on to further details until he finally asks for MY number (not the other way around) so that he can contact me when I successfully get the job. I have a good feeling about this.

FINGERS CROSSED!

2010-10-27T21:33:00.004+08:00

Keeping up with the Kardashians!<3

Job-hunting is suchhh a bummer when you're alone looking for it. However, i guess it is still a good experience(;

It's later than usual for me to start looking for a job since my holidays have started more than 2 weeks ago but i've just applied for a few today & i really hope they accept me. Otherwise, i'll be stuck at home for eternity & i won't have money that is more than S$100 to use for shopping when i go back to the Philippinessssss. :S Pray Pray(;
I'm heading to West Mall & IMM tomorrow with Faiqah because she'll accompany me as i search for more jobs & afterwards, accompany her to IMM as she goes for an job interview in Secret Recipes (Whatever that is). She says it's like Starbucks.

Anyway, I hope all the 4Es & the 5NAs are doing well now that they're all in the process of completing their Olevels(; All the best guys!

Did I mention I loveeeeeee the Kardashians? Hahahah. They're not B****es but they're lives are WHACK! HAHAHAH. They have 3 reality tv shows of their lives & it's pretty amazing how they deal with fame & family issues all at the same time. They're actually pretty wild sometimes & i guess that's what makes it all so interesting. They sometimes experience the same things we experience...

But what I can really say is that the three Kardashian sisters REALLY REALLY HAVE VOLUPTUOUS CURVES & ASSETS! hahahahah. :D & they're all REAL! It's so Woahhhh. HAH!

The Kardashians rule!

2010-10-20T18:18:00.004+08:00

We're One and the Same

I had a great time with Besteey today(;

Eos: "It's been almost a week since i last saw you."

AJ: " Well, yeah, it kinda has... but technically, it's been over a month since we've actually spent time together. Alone. (smiles)"

I finally gave her her birthday gift that i owed her for over a month now. Hahah, it's funny because she owed me MY birthday gift for over a month as well. I loved it by the way. It was a really huge Eeyore & a lovely card. She knows i love Eeyore, so what more can I ask for but a HUGE one. Hahah! It's the first thing you'll actually see when you enter my room(;

I'm so glad she loved my gift for her too. She was so surprised! She kept asking me questions like, "you had so much time?!" & "we have that many pictures together?!" & "Why THIS pictureeee?!". She even whinged and said, "PAPER MARKET! That's so expensive!" All that & she told me she loved it(;

We went for lunch together & chatted like there was no tomorrow. Laughed out loud in KFC because we talked about thisssss & talked about thatttttt.

I simply love her!(;

Next plan is to go to Universal Studios together(; Yes, just the two of us. Heheh. Awesome! Now that we've gone there with our families, I can't wait to go there with Besteey.

2010-10-15T20:05:00.004+08:00

Butts day out was FABULOUSSSSSS! =D we walked, talked, laughed, shopped, ate & reigned the whole of Singapore's town area in just one afternoon with our lovely, long flowing dresses!

Ate Ben & Jerry's & got our legs aching like crazy after all the walking. There was even an emergency, but all Nurul did was laugh at me. HAHAH, like you don't get 'em every month! Pfft. What did Nurul buy that day, ohhhh slippers! & what did AJ buy? BAHAHAHAH! Something from Watsons! Wheeeee =B

Hahahah, she's The Bomb!(;

2010-10-14T00:19:00.005+08:00

HI!

Been doing nuts lately. Just finally getting some good relax time at home. You know, chillin' with my little brother, doing a typical routine. Sleep, wake up, eat, watch TV, use the computer, then do it all over again. Hahah! Nahh, i'm not wasting time, i actually feel lazy & happy! =D It's a nice feeling to have nothing to worry about at all!

But hey, OF COURSE i'll go out! I already have so many things planned out & ready to go! Sleepovers, shopping, EVERYTHING! I can't waittttt.

AH, YES! To my friends who are graduating tomorrow. An awesome job well done!(; don't cry there. heheh, you should smile because you've all grown. Plus, i'll be praying for ALL OF YOU as you all take your Olevels. ROCK IT!(;

&your welcome, to all those who have thanked me for the letter i wrote to you & to some who even felt emotional about what i wrote in it, hahah. Those letters is from the bottom of my heart that's going out to all of you guys. I love all of you, for a lifetime.

Goodnight world, i'll see you tomorrow. Goodnight Lord, i'll wake up for you.

2010-10-11T13:39:00.006+08:00

Nlevels are finally

OVERRRRRRRRRR!

=D hahah!

It's time to start the celebrations and the parties! I'm so excited!(; But what's weird is, i'm actually starting to think of my results. yikes. Pish-poshhhhh, erase erase!

Gosh, there's so much to do... If you think about it, this is the first holiday that we actually DO NOT have home works to complete. All the holidays we ever had in secondary school were always occupied with either assignments or extra classes. Now we're totally free from all the headaches & frustrations & just CHILL & HAVE FUN=D Love the sound of thattttt. heheh.

To my beloved class,

Awesome job on working hard & studying smart for out N levels. Wherever we may all end up, let's never forget that we were 4A1 & we will always be Champions For Life!(; I love you people!

Now, let's see what i can do during this holiday. hmmmmmm...

1. Go for dance lessons!

2. Shop!

3. Work part-time (Universal Studios!)

4. Read all my favourite books all over again!

5. Have Movie-Marathons!

6. Hang out & have fun!

7. Go Philippines! (absolutely! Then i can go surfing there!)

8. cycle/roller-blade around the neighbourhood!

9. & MANY MANY MOREEEEE, yes!

Hahah! The time is ours, people! (; Live it to the fullest.

Thank you Lord, for everything. I love you, forever & the most! <3

2010-09-22T16:33:00.004+08:00

THIS IS IT!

Another 12 more days to the next half of my N levels. AHHHHHHH! Freaking out over here. I think imma hyperventilate here soon. Sheesh, the pressure's really getting to me.

So why am i online? I d k. HAH!

Anyway, i just got my Prelim results. Thank God i managed to pass everything :D Although i still have a lot of work to do for my Math & POA. Sighhhh... I was able to score As & Bs for the other 3subjects though(; I'm applicable for Sec 5, my Prelim results says.

So I guess, this is where i stand right now. But I'm going to do sooooo much better for my Nlevels. Imma get my 11points! YESH! (;

Thanks Besteey, for the lovely & sweet letter & the really huge Eeyore! :D I love you, forever & always!

Me=A Celebrity

2010-09-18T19:12:00.003+08:00

Is it actually obvious that I'm someone who wants to be on TV, doing something I'm not just good at but something i love? Me being on stage since i was 6 years old always had an impact on me somehow. I love the feeling of doing something on stage, hearing the applause of the audience & basically just making myself happy & also making God proud. Every new day i'm on stage performing is always a new experience.

It's not really all about the attention because like i said, the reason why you're the centre of attention is because you're doing something you actually love. & being on stage, being seen on TV or just simply being BIG is something I've always been dying to become-a celebrity.

Haha. I might sound too ambitious here but everyone has dreams, right? Dreams of becoming Scientists, Astronauts, Teachers, Musicians, etc. Well, my dream is to either sing or dance or act or all of them altogether! Maybe even publish a book while I'm at it because i just love writing. There's so much i want to become & so much i want to accomplish in life i find it so hard to choose.

Sometimes, my family would even jokingly predict my future. We'd laugh and have a great time talking about me becoming a Star in some show like Angelina Jolie or dancing & singing my way to success like Beyonce Knowles. My Mom even volunteered to be my manager & my Dad would handle my finances. I'm also pretty sure my brothers would give me moral support & give me advise and help me decided what's cool & what's not . HAH! With that support, who'd ever feel like they can never reach for the stars?

I'm going to study hard to achieve whatever dreams i have & pursue the things i love to do in life. Never backing down. & if i fall, i'll get up again. If i get rejected, i'll keep trying. Yes, that's exactly what I'm going to do(; I'll be successful in life, with the help of my family, friends & my God!

Ways to achieve the dream:

1st. Join a competition where it exposes my talent for singing or dancing!

For example, Singapore Idol or a dance competition.

2nd. Join a reality TV show in the Philippines!

For example, Pinoy Big Brother Teen. You automatically get famous over there, FYI. hahah!

3rd. I could apply to a school that focuses on the ARTS!

For example, i could go to NAFA or La Salle for College!

4th. Move to the US so i could audition for a Hollywood role in Disney Channel!

For example, Wizards of Waverly Place or whatever.

I'm wishing, I'm wishing... I'm hoping, I'm hoping... I'm praying, I'm praying...

2010-09-16T12:29:00.003+08:00

ACOUSTIC CONCERT

1O OF SEPTEMBER

A great night to remember.

I sang If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys. My very own trademark song. & it was dedicated to the Lord Almighty!

2010-09-16T12:14:00.004+08:00

Part 2 of our Prelim Exams has ended. Some papers were easy, & some gave us a headache. I can say one thing though, i did my best. Yes, i did, & i'm proud of myself(;

Awaiting the results. I trust the Lord. I thank Him for giving me the knowledge and the confidence.

Just another two more weeks till the rest of my N level examinations. One last month till i graduate from Sec 4... I'd like to correct the saying, It should be this: Time flies whether you're having fun or not. All's good.

2010-09-15T15:26:00.001+08:00

Big Big Smiles

& a heart filled with hope.

2010-09-08T18:28:00.002+08:00

WE SPOKE!

we spoke we spoke we spoke we spoke!!

okay, no, actually,

WE CHATTED/COMMENTED!

we chatted/commented we chatted/commented we chatted/commented we chatted/commented!

HAH! :D

2010-09-08T16:07:00.003+08:00

" She couldn't remember exactly when, but somewhere along the way, she had given up even imagining that a guy could sweep her away. She had once calculated that there had to be someone out there in a world of 6.3 billion people who would love her well and long. She even planned to sail out to find him. It was a romantic idea, but deep down she knew the truth. "

I had turned off those emotional faucets, and they were rusty from disuse.

But when i see you, i surrender to the incredible feeling inside, like frozen ground beginning to thaw.

The surface looked the same but everything underneath was changing.

nothing in particular.

OH YAH! I just bought the book The Death & Life of Charlie ST. Cloud. Now a major motion picture starring pretty boy Zac Efron<3

DID I MENTION THAT TODAY HAS BEEN SO COLD?! I'VE BEEN SNEEZING SINCE MORNING LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW! :S

2010-09-08T15:29:00.005+08:00

I got home more than an hour ago from my N level English paper. It was pretty easy. Not being over-confident or any of that sort but hopefully, i'll get my A1. I just have to! Everyone had let out a sigh of relief at the end of the paper so perhaps Mdm J would actually get her 100% passes after all. Besides, who wants to fail?

Social Studies the other day was a blessing as Mr Trevor considers it because almost all our revision in class was about Sri Lanka and our SEQ question was on Sri Lanka! How awesome was that? Plus, the SBQ wasn't that bad either. It was just about the ERP system in Singapore and not like those questions about Kenya or something way beyond my ken. I could have done it either way but we were fortunate enough to get an easy exam paper this year. Thank God. So i'll hopefully get my A1 too(;

You have no idea how much effort i put my brain through to memorizing the stuff needed for SS. Aparently, i'm having flu now! HAH!

A prayer is a miracle(;

I went back home right after i ate at KFC and saw this two boys. They're not any ordinary boys, they're special. They looked like they are my age but they seem a bit shorter, probably because of their sickness. My first impression of them was perhaps like any other normal human being in this world---disturbed because of how loud they spoke and how restless the two boys were inside the train. However, it faded right after i overheard them talking about church. I soon realised that they were Christians... I was a bit ashamed of how i felt towards them after that. I am a Christian myself.

You know what, i think they're the most innocent people in this entire Universe. Unlike us, they don't try to make life difficult for themselves or for others. They just go about doing their own business in the most perfect example anyone like them can ever think of. They might have their flaws, but i think their flaws are nothing compared to ours... Plus, they are the ones God really adores. God doesn't favouritise, but somehow i feel that God wants us to be like them. Sometimes i wish that everyone can just be like them in terms of character & heart, because their biggest innocence are their hearts after all...

Life's good for now & even though we've drifted away from each other, everyone of you will always be in my heart... I miss you, all of you. Take care always HMS...

HMS may not fully exist anymore, but at least HMS was created. (;

2010-09-03T19:24:00.004+08:00

N levels starts next week!!!!

Social Studies (CH) on tuesday & English on wednesday. Both my best subjects(;

However, i feel scared...

Dear Lord, I'm doing this for you, mom & dad & me.

I don't believe in luck, i believe in you.

May you be with me.

Amen

This is my chance to prove myself...

Wish me all the best. (;

2010-09-01T22:16:00.005+08:00

I love this gorgeous lady(; She was my BestFriend in Primary school & i can't believe we still clique now. She never really changed except that she's more bouncy (literally) & giggly. HAHAH!

We talked about our lives in Primary School & it felt so much as if we were never apart. She was the best & is still the best. We found out about each other & told each other what we went through the past 4years & couldn't believe the differences. Heheh...

Besteey is my BestFriend now & i love her with all my heart but Radiance will always be one of those people i can never forget...

Cheers to 10 years of friendship & still counting!<3

2010-08-31T19:30:00.004+08:00

Good day today(; BTW, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all SMB Secondary School teachers(;

I performed with Ashikin, singing The Only Exception by Paramore while Kyn played the guitar.

I pulled Mdm Jayanthi to the front of the stage & she almost cried. HAH, she started to get emotional but fortunately, she controlled herself. It was impromptu :D

Chilled with Besteey, Nurul & the guys before separating. They kept playing with my guitar. Had to teach one person how to play too, LOL.

Anyway, i had a good time.

Met up with my faavourite people from my primary school days & whoooooo how much i've missed them! Radiance is still so giggly & girly, Rachel is forever short but adorable & Abigail grew taller and still talkative. heheh! I love them & we had such a great time catching up & looking back to our primary school days together. Can't wait for next time(;

2010-08-28T18:19:00.002+08:00

2010-08-28T15:44:00.003+08:00

Besteey's birthday party was The Bomb!(;

too much to say about it but here's the best summary i can give:

THE BEST DANCING, THE BEST SHOWDOWN, THE BEST LAUGHING MOMENTS, THE BEST FOOD, THE BEST DECOR, THE BEST CAKE.... & THE BEST BESTFRIEND!<3

pictures are in Facebook.

To my Besteey,

It was your birthday, but the both of us had our ugly moments. hahah. Nevertheless, i told you you'll still have fun(; I had fun too. Remember, i love you the most out there. Forever & always Besteey.

P/s I wasn't blind when some of you were mocking me from behind... I knew what some of you were doing... But i tried to ignore. I had to hide to cry... It's really hard to keep a straight face... to have fun when i'm being mocked... Never mind though, because you all are still my friends, even though we're not acting that way anymore...

2010-08-28T15:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN MY ONE & ONLY BESTFRIEND!

I love you! forever & always!(;

There's too much to say about her...

because she's everything i want for a best friend.

Thank you, Lord, for her!

Bonfire= Wyldfire!

2010-08-22T20:15:00.006+08:00

" God is bigger than the boogie man. He's bigger than Godzilla & monsters in tv"

-Vegetales

Had our Bonfire launching & it was awesome. All for God, it was!(;

& our dance was a bit affected by the small space given but it was all good. I missed dancing hip hop.

I really had fun with Wyldfire. Wow, how we've grown. It's so amazing to know that i'm going to grow up with them forever. Ever since we were kids we've been the greatest bunch of friends you can ever have. Through thick & thin. That's what i call forever(; Especially knowing that we have God in our lives.

If it wasn't for Him, we wouldn't be where we are now. Glory to God!

Speaking of dancing, Nissiel gave me her La Salle booklet of Admission. When i read through the dance criteria, it made me nervous to even imagine trying out for the auditions. She also said it's really tedious & exhausting because they have so many long hours of practices. Furthermore, it's all dance. I'll be dancing my way till the end of my college life. WOAH! It's going to be sooooo cool but i have doubts. Sigh, well, to even think of going there, i have to first pass all my subjects with flying colours!(; So i will, yay!

P/s, i forgot to bring my handphone this morning so i asked my Mom to bring it to church for me. Bad idea! My Dad ended up checking my messages!);<>

Wait till my Dad comes home. Sighhhhh... I wonder how he feels about his daughter's situation & the things around me...

P/s, It's no more a ten, but so much less than that... I'm letting go...

2010-08-20T21:59:00.007+08:00

The boy actor of 2003 for the Peter Pan movie!
HE'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
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Nurul & Aj says: "i want a boyfriend... HAHAHAH!" WHAT?!
purity ring, AJ. purity ring! hahah =B

Head in the Game!

2010-08-18T22:26:00.002+08:00

This Is It!

Let's Do This!

DANCE!

2010-08-15T19:37:00.002+08:00

At Nissiel's house again(: love love love! Did my homework here & here she is, doing her art works and singing.

My foot hurts again. We rehearsed our dance for next week's Bonfire launching! Awesome, it's hip hop! love love love.

I already booked Besteey for our picnic-date & YESSSSS! i can't wait!(;

You know, i think i'm satisfied...

2010-08-13T16:58:00.002+08:00

I spent time with Besteey & her mom & a few of her aunties. We had fun. Eos kept pestering me to eat her Mac meal. She payed for it to be 'Up-sized' so i could eat with her but i really had no appetite. Don't really have any appetite nowadays... Maybe it's the weather. Maybe it's...

Anyway, I went home early & it feels good. I got to relax & play the guitar again. Now, i'm drowning myself in chocolates. Oh, how chocolates can just take your sorrows away at times(; i still have my medium-size Hershey Kisses with me & i plan to share it with Besteey on her birthday. Taking her out on a picnic date<3>

I've just finished reading the book called Beastly. By the name you can already guess what's it about. The modern day fairy tale of Beauty & the Beast. I love it. I love fairy tales. I love books that can take you to a whole new world.

My next book would be Peter Pan In Scarlet. Off to Neverland!

OH, btw, i passed my Math mock test(;

Cotillion & Acoustic Night rehearsals tomorrow.

2010-08-12T21:57:00.003+08:00

second post of the day. WOAH! I've been strumming the guitar for at least 2 & a half hours straight, hahah. I've been playing Marie Digby's songs & i rock at 'em! LOL, she's HOT, she's REALLY FAIR, she SINGS, she's half IRISH half JAPANESE & what the heck, BEAUTIFUL! hahah, if i were a boy, i think i'll stalk her.

My older brothers are in love with her but my eldest is the craziest. He keeps hitting me while saying she's so beautiful & hot & blah blah blah.

SIAO AH, i might have bruises!

hahahah, i love my brothers(; who needs sisters? =D

Loveeee the guitar but i'm procastinating. Tsk, tsk.

Bye then(;

Suddenly feel lighter & happier. Thanks guitar!<3

2010-08-12T19:13:00.004+08:00

hearts become cold

real personalities unfold.

Knife through your back,

what's more painful than that?

Wasting time killing,

yet pointless & so undefined.

Even with a forgiving heart,

it won't mean a brand new start.

-Andrea Joy

I was wrong. All a misunderstanding. Guess the ugly story continues...

I've fought, i tried my best. I thought it was finally The End, but i thought wrong.

I don't want to do this anymore... I'm tired so i'm not going to say anything else.

If it doesn't matter to any of you, what else can i do but walk away?

Why are we doing this to each other anyway?

This is me, i'm not changing for anybody because one way or another, i know Jesus loves me for who i am, despite my flaws... & i believe that's what's important.

I've got Him, so i'm complete, even though i've lost you... );

Even if i was mistaken by your post, even if it wasn't actually for me, i'm still sorry...

&it's true, i do miss everyone of you... you were part of my life story somehow & will always be.

I'm not strong. But if i have to be, i'll try.

I'm sorry, i'm sorry...

Ano'ng ibig sabihin nang lakas ng loob?

This is...

2010-08-11T12:04:00.001+08:00

);

this is heart-breaking.

&for the first time, i cried...

WTH.

why am i even expecting anything anyway?

2010-08-10T18:49:00.003+08:00

If i'm not wrong... i saw your blog & i came across your latest post & i just wanted to ask you...

does this mean that we're friends again? because i would love to be... Was that for me? Hahah, just checking... I don't think we should waste anymore of our time ignoring each other... & i'm sorry too for whatever i've done... I really am. You know i am (;

Truce, princess?

2010-08-09T22:23:00.001+08:00

2010-08-08T23:25:00.003+08:00

HELLO! Whoo, i love cold showers after a sweaty & tiring day, don't you agree?(; My family & i went for our church's KoinOlympics 2010 & although i didn't do much due to my sprained ankle, i walked A LOT! Goshhhh, i think i managed to walk, wait no, limp the whole of West Coast! Hahah, but i was accompanied by Dea & Jeru. i had great fun watching the youth play games too(;

Yesterday,

Church was a roller-coaster!

I bought a last minute gift *cough* then rushed back with Dea for Bonfire. She helped me decide. I don't think it's much but it's a good choice, i guess(;

We were suppose to make cards for our beloved parents during Bonfire but we ended up having testimony sharing & A LOT OF CRYING... My brothers were there so i was fortunate enough to have done it on my birthday(; I don't think i can handle telling my life testimony in front of them because they're part of it. I probably would have dashed to the toilet half way. HAH!

Went home early because my foot started hurting. I met up with friends to turn up for Haziq's birthday get together at the very last minute just to also pass him the gift. (yes, it was for him). They saved a part of the cake for me but it tasted pretty saltyyyyy. HAHAH! Faye said it was under the sun for a very long time so perhaps it got spoilt. I ate it anyway, just to make up for my late appearance.

We separated ways after i ate. I thought it was too short of a time & i didn't get to spend time with him or the rest but fortunately, we chatted at night(; It was cho cuteee, we kept teasing each other, heh.

blah bleh blih bloh bluhhhhh, it's officially his birthday & Singapore's 45th birthday as well. I realised that i've been in Singapore for at least 14 years & that makes it my whole life! I love Singapore, my second home.

& YOU, my grandfather! hahah, happy 61st birthday. JOKE. We've been friends since sec 1 & whoooshh, how time flies fast. I hope you had a wonderful time with your family today(;

kahit behind the curtains of our lives, meron parin saya(;

Because God is good.

&that goes out to all of us(;

hope you had a great day!

sorry.

2010-08-07T20:36:00.002+08:00

Stupid blogskin. so ugly & deformed.

still thinking, not sure. i don't know. i can only think of one thing in particular that i MIGHT do.

Cracking my brain over here!

Dear God,

it's too late for him...

However, i know you loved him with all your heart.

I never really got to know my Uncle, i only got to know the bad stuff...

But thank you because you gave him my parents & other family members to care for him while he was still on Earth.

I guess when you say stop, it really actually ends there...

Wherever he is now, my family trusts you.

Amen.

2010-08-06T20:14:00.004+08:00

"Everyday's experience, whether rain or shine, they're still wonderful

&as they become precious memories they'll be kept close to my heart

&no matter where i go i will always know, where i belong"

- Where I Belong

Class 4A1 of 2010

The Besteeys acting Bimbo for the day :D

Piggy-back ride with my Bestguyfriend! Thanks sweetheart, for taking care of me & my foot.

Butts forever & ever!

The ultimate trio of 4A1; PANTATS

Exercise when i can barely move.

Dance partner love<3

2010-08-06T19:46:00.002+08:00

WOW! TODAY WAS A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

FIRSTLY, i sprained my ankle even before the whole ceremony started (HAHAH! i'm such a loser!)

i was rushing to my class because i needed to assist them with something & KABOOM PABOOM! hahahah, i rolled on the floor, toppling over the bicycles beside me like domino.

&typical, no one came to my rescue, they came for the bikes' rescue! GRR, only when i said " HELP ME LAHH!" then a few people came.

HAHAH, so embarrassing. fortunately, everyone was still oblivious.

SECONDLY, the graduating classes had A-W-E-S-O-M-E outfits!

THIRDLY, i managed to sing & 'dance' with the rest. Good Job girls!

FOURTHLY, frisbee competition between the graduating classes was both FUN & UNFAIR. hahahah! FUN because i got to spend time with my class & laughed at about anything & everything. Adding on to make fun of other classes's cheers (oopsy) & played a little.

stupid ankle, i didn't get to play properly. i tried running but eventually felt the ache so i backed out. sheesh.

UNFAIR because the referee was BLEAHHHHHHH! hahahahah.

score goals but he denied we did. CHE!

PLUS, there were a lot of 'it's our one! no, it's ours!' when actually, it was ours. hahahah.

oh well.

FIFTH, my sprained ankle started to hurt even more!

i think it's because of the impact after running.

but YAY! i got piggy-back rides with KynMo & Ganeish(;

THANKS!

&LAST but not the LEAST,

i had a great great great time with Besteey, Butts & Ganeish at my house. they sent me home, aww cho chweet. hahah. we talked & watched a movie until Ganeish had to leave.

So the three of us were left watching HellBoy & stalking people in Facebook & checking out the website about AABAL (Anti Ah Beng Ah Lian)

LOL!!!

We made videos too; our 'first date's' (yeah right!)

it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

i love them(;

i keep using the word AWESOME. Obviously because today had been one(;

now, how shall i go to school for CH tomorrow with a sprained ankle eyh?

&Acoustic practice?

&Cotillion?

tsk, tsk, tsk.

2010-08-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

National Day celebration starts tomorrow in Sembawang Secondary School & i know it's gonna be a whole lot of fun(;

BUT! i'm suppose to sing with a few teachers & friends. grrr, not that i don't like singing or singing my second home's songs but i planned not to sing/dance anymore in school. hahah! Oh well, i guess i'll just have to get it over with.

Hmm... we're left with 2 months plus. & you're right, there aren't anymore words left to help us explain each of our sides. So if it's going to be like this, then, okay. I respect your decision. you two will always be one of those friends i'll cherish my whole life.

i miss the both of you, i really do(; Take care & work hard for your O levels! HUG.

Dear you, it's okay. i guess i don't mind.. (; Thank you anyway.

OH! & i d k what to give. hahahah. SOS!

2010-08-01T18:53:00.002+08:00

Maybe, just maybe...

I D K);

but i'll stay strong...

for myself & for those who are true.

Dad said today, that when everyone gives up on you, the Lord will never do the same.

Reminder & my favourite of all sayings:

When the World hates you, remind yourself that the world hated Jesus Christ first...

2010-08-01T01:50:00.001+08:00

There are bigger things to focus on right now, like my studies.

& i'm not going to waste my time hurting people, hating people or taking them for granted.

I'm happy, despite the stones thrown at me.

I'm happy, because i'm still blessed with many others.

This is high school after all.

Dear God, i know one thing. You'll always be the ideal friend to me.

&even if i'm flawed, &even if i'm not deserving of your love, you'll never stop loving me.

I still don't know what i'm doing wrong... no one wants to tell me.

Right now i pray that you teach me to have an understanding heart. Help me make the right choices. Teach me to be You.

Help me love them no matter the circumstances, help me be a friend.

Amen.

Hug me);

2010-08-01T01:11:00.005+08:00

My dear girl, you didn't have to apologise.
No one said you have to.

(i apologized because i don't want to lose the friendship, but maybe you do. i apologized because i knew this would continue, but i guess it would still continue no matter how many times i said sorry.)

I know you're all nice to apologise, but it's not needed.
My side of the story doesn't have to be told.

(& why so? when you're the one avoiding?)

Whatever you are saying, it's so contradicting to your words &actions.

(Okay, so tell me which actions or what words were so contradicting. I'm curious, because you were the one lying about something in particular)

& the golden saying 'never judge it's book by it's cover' fits perfectly in this context.

(please explain what you're trying to say here, it doesn't really have a point to the whole situation.)

To start a war, you need 2 parties.
Currently, there is only 1 party which is yourself.

(two parties... one party, me? how can it even be a war, when all i'm trying to do is settle it while you're there, laughing about it)

Besides, i ain't having any nuclear weapons.
Btw, when there's war, the ppl from opposites do talk right?

(no, they can don't talk. that's when war evolves because they were friends)

Think and reflect, you'll find the answer to it all.

That's all I've got to say.

(Nope, i still don't know what i did wrong. Been reflecting since she stopped talking to me. Just can't figure out. so please just tell me.)

What if the kind of a person you thought she was all this while wasn't true after all?

What would you do?

(i'd be shocked, because she was never true to anyone, nor herself from the very beginning...)

2010-07-31T22:32:00.005+08:00

Is it me, or is the world getting meaner by the day?

Or maybe it's just the people around that's making everything fall apart.

Making it all a big deal.

Yesterday, i tried.

If you were in my place, what would you feel?

Apologizing even though I don't know what I did wrong?

then in the end, you're just told that i shouldn't explain any further because you've pushed it aside...

Not even your side of the story was said.

It took me a lot of courage you know...

You told me to forget about it, that i shouldn't burden myself. But you probably don't mean it anyway. Do you?

Did you really think that i was out there to hurt you at all?

Do you even know what i'm trying NOT to do?

Do you know how much i'm sacrificing?

Do you even know what that person & i chat about?

If only you knew what i told him...

My words have no affect?

Then should i just shut up & let you talk about me even when i effing don't know what i did wrong?

I thought you were the kind of person who wouldn't want to be involved?

Everyone thought so too.

Did you know that although we don't talk much, you're one of the friends i trust the most because i thought you were that kind of person everyone thought you were?

Maybe you're not on her side. Maybe you're not on anyone's side.

But does it change the fact that you're acting oppositely?

What did i do wrong?

tell me, because i seriously want to know.

If you can say things about me behind my back, then tell me face to face. Or even SMS.

SMACK IT RIGHT AT ME,

because i'm clueless.

stop being plastik.

i guess the word friends was never even a mutual thing from the beginning after all.

& when this high school life ends, i'll get to know who my real friends are.

i'll get to know what the word friendship really means.

like i said, i'm trying to live life in the best way i can.

Dear God, what do i have to do?

What did I do?);

2010-07-30T22:09:00.001+08:00

Lost for words.

I'm just doing the best i can in life, you know.

2010-07-30T21:49:00.002+08:00

My Awesome family!

The Best family in the whole galaxy!

i love them much much much<3

Parents' 29th Anniversary & My Sweet Sixteen at Marina Bay Sands!

2010-07-29T17:18:00.002+08:00

A segregation eyh? hahah, wonder how that happened. when i said 'bye' also no reply. LOLLL, it's that how it is eyh... I thought i didn't have anything to be sorry about? So what's with the ignorance? Oh well, never mind, I'm still having a SUPER UBER great time with my Besteey, Nurul & the boys.

I sincerely & honestly think that the boys are easier to be with, you know. Aw c'mon, don't tell me you don't agree. hahah. No, but seriously speaking... despite the differences & despite the situations going around, they don't mind a good laugh or a good tease. No dramas, just pure sincerity & friendship... i love my bestguyfriends!

Thank you Lord for them.

sighhh... i mean, aren't you tired of all this drama? it's so pointless & stressful. i'm not saying i don't feel happy with the rest of the girls but how can i feel happy if we're all feeling so tensed around each other?

It's the last year... so i wonder what'll happen in the end.

On the skip side:

YAY! BESTEEY'S FINALLY BACKKKKKKKK!<3>

2010-07-28T22:57:00.002+08:00

I think i'm going to be sick. i can feel it coming! im sneezing & there's snot stuck in my throat so i probably will get a soarthroat! ohhh mannnn, bad timing.
i'm having Eng mock test on Friday, Science & Math Mock test next monday & my English & SS prelims next week too!
Before we all know it, we're at the hall for the REAL BIG THING!
Oh God, i'm scared... don't think i'm prepared but i do know i'm trying to do something about it... i just hope it's enough.

Life's a bit hazy. i don't think i'm experiencing anything serious besides my National exams but some of my friends are... i'll be praying for you.

Anyway, short post. i'm just taking the opportunity to go online during the weekdays because we have visitors today so my parents don't really care. hahah!

Goodnight<3

We made a promise to each other, & that's to make the best outta every moment together(; yay-ness.
PLUS, i think i...

2010-07-25T21:31:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Thank you everyone. Thank you for all the greetings, the gifts, the laughter, the smiles, the singing, the crying, the hugs, the kisses, the fun, the joy, the company & the love! <3

Thank you God for my life; my past, my current & my future. i love you!

Thank you Family; for the meaningful gifts & your everlasting love.

2010-07-23T19:42:00.002+08:00

Happy Anniversary Mom & Dad! i love you both, forever<3

I thank God He gave you both to me.

Thanks for being such great parents to the whole family.

Sorry because i've been naughty, but you know i'll always love the both of you(;

2010-07-23T18:50:00.002+08:00

Racial Harmony Day 2010!

Apologies

2010-07-23T17:50:00.004+08:00

Ever gotten tired of being pulled in, even when your real intentions were good?

Ever gotten tired of being accused of something you did not do, &despite your explanations, nothings seems to work?

Ever gotten tired of being ignored, even though you're not sure what you did wrong or what you're doing wrong?

well, i have... almost every single day since last week.

But a mask is needed, because there really is no point in sulking or crying or even getting mad, because somehow, it's just not worth it.

they're not worth it...

In my case, no matter how tired i am for putting on a strong front, or getting hurt, they are still worth the fall...

Certain mishaps have been around since last week. yet i'm not quite sure why i'm getting affected or why i'm involved. i haven't said anything here because i didn't want to make to publish it.

It's just that now, i feel so, how do you put it... i feel so claustrophobic you know. lol, i meant it in a strange frustrated way.

So to you, my darling,

i hope it's nothing personal... because it's nothing like you think it is. i'm only there for her, & as a friend, i want to be there for her. Perhaps i've already explained all that i can explain to you. i hate talking to you knowing that you're hesitating to talk to me. i can feel the distance, i can feel the hurt but i try my very best not to put it between us. I cry, because of what's happening... I really really pray that we're gonna be alright. like for real...

you can take my word that i'll never ever replace you as her best friend. You are rightfully hers darl.

i love you, as much as before & you'll always be my darl...

& dear you,

i'm not too sure if my assumptions about us is actually real, but by the looks of it, our friendship's breaking. i don't want to blame you, but i'm not trying to avoid you... i don't want it to break, nor do i want you to ignore me or hate me because of the fact that i ____ ____ (i'm sure you know what words fit perfectly there). hmm, please... i really don't want to lose you... it's the last year... i don't want to lose you because of it/her/him, because it's really not worth tearing our friendship over...

nothing will happen to me & it/her/him. I'm only in love with the fact that we're just close friends & nothing else because i don't want anything else to happen. trust me, i don't want to hurt you. &to tell you the truth, i told it/her/him too that i don't want to hurt you so i wouldn't ask for anything else. i understand how you feel, because i felt that way too when you were close to I, that's why i'll understand you. So i really hope we'll fix this...

Gosh, this is so heartbreaking...

it'll be my birthday in 2days time, but probably because of this, the two of you are not coming for the bowling...

Father God, help me, help us. I love them, very much. Tell me what i should do. Lord guide me, help me fix this... because i'm so lost. Help me be your instrument, help me be your example. i don't want to lose my friends. Not now, not ever...

I'm so ugly in your eyes God, help me redefine beautiful again...

Unpredictable

2010-07-22T21:05:00.003+08:00

RACIAL HARMONY DAY!

was awesome(;

lazy to blog about itttt. i'll upload the pictures & i'll let them do the talking k.

P/S, maybe, it's not true...

Moments like that

2010-07-16T21:49:00.004+08:00

i like today.

&even if it's just going to be like this, i guess it's good enough(;

i heart chu.

P/S,

i want to change blogskin soon & my music doesn't seem to work for some reason already, hahah. will find the time when i'm not too lazy.

Butts forever!

2010-07-09T22:02:00.004+08:00

Due to my exhaustion, i forgot to mention

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRHTDAY NURULbutts!

you're an awesome friend & an awesome laughing partner. you're such a great person to be with & even when you're down, you try to smile & be rational. love, even though you're going through a rough time these days, always remember that you've got me with you. & if someone leaves you, you've got the rest of the HMS to be there for you. just keep walking & moving on, don't stay in that muddy pavement forever k. I'll help you through it, i promise(;

Although your birthday this year isn't a good one, i hope you still loved what we did for you! Especially when the Aussie girls hugged you & sang you a birthday song(; you lucky one! hahahah.

Butts, i love you, very much. Happy Birthday!

I'm such a loser

2010-07-09T21:16:00.006+08:00

It's a Friday yet i'm so tired to do much. i'm not even sitting up right, Oh gosh...

so tired of explaining myself to my parents.

so tired of trying to deal with this certain situation.

so tired of knowing that you & you are not in good terms.

so tired of knowing that it's her birthday yet it's THE WORSE one ever.

so tired of knowing that this friendship of theirs is crumbling & yet nothing's happening to mend it back together.

so tired of making the first move.

so tired of trying to find out what i'm actually feeling.

so tired of just having to watch you from afar when all i want is to talk to you.

so tired of just staring into your eyes, then looking away after that.

I'm so tireddddd.

i'm back to square one, i'm back to sec 1.

Dear God, take my heart & make it clean

Jackson Rathbone!

2010-07-02T23:27:00.006+08:00

OH OH! i think i'm on Team Jasper too. if there is a such a team. Never mind, i shall make one then.

He's not that bad either. i admired him but never really went crazy about him in New Moon but watching him in Eclipse, being all smart & sweet with Alice ( Ashley Greene) was enough to make me go, sighhhh. hahah!

& he's actually pretty cute with short ruffled hair. I likeeee<3

absolutely not forgetting his pretty GREEN eyes, omg,

i'll practically just faint if i see him...

same goes for the rest of the cast.

Don't worry AJ, in time, you'll be a Hollywood star too! =D

2010-07-02T21:34:00.007+08:00

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse WAS THE BOMBBBBBB!

Eclipse ftw! i loved it. No wonder it was my favourite book of the whole Twilight series(; Action, drama, thrill & suspense all at once! Now i can't wait for Breaking Dawn- RENESMEE<3

HAHAH! & so, Andrea Joy Arales Alingalan has decided today that she is in Team Edward but Team Taylor Lautner!

&& Team Alice & Jasper!

YAY YAY YAY!!<3

i love 'em allllllllll!!!!

Say it with me now, "I LOVE TWILIGHT SAGA!"

Faiqah was a great movie date(; had quality time with her & i especially loved making her laugh while getting high on Starbucks coffee. HA HA!

but before that, i had to wait for her at CCK's MRT platform. i was sitting quietly & happily dreaming about nothing in particular when all of a sudden a group of Malay guys walked pass me & started starring at me & murmuring stuff to one another. At first i was like, 'what?'. then one of 'em walked towards me as if to try to sit next to me since i was alone but he didn't really have the guts i guess cos he ended up walking pass me. The other guys laughed at him while my expression was under control. HAH, i didn't quite react cos i thought it was rather stupid.

When they were all finally walking off, he turned around & said bye. LOL. i gave a really really really small smile with a whatever look. It was so weird, he was still waving even when going down the escalator.

Such boysssss. yuck.

we bought identical purity rings to remind us of our promises to ourselves.

since our rings has two small 'diamonds', i made two promises to myself. Guess them yourself.

P/S, guess it's been a longggg time since i've said this here, so i want to shout,

I LOVE THE LORD! My life is not perfect, but i thank Him for all the blessing & happiness he has given me despite my flaws.

Everyday

2010-06-29T16:39:00.001+08:00

Right now, you are

2010-06-29T16:38:00.001+08:00

right now, you are.

Thank you

2010-06-29T16:33:00.004+08:00

H, even though you don't notice, you make me smile...

& even when you try to, you do a better job.

THANK YOU...

2010-06-29T16:27:00.002+08:00

Today, i was pestered by one of your close friends about you.

it's weird because he knows perfectly well that YOU hate me, so why?

if you have something to say, say it. please...

we haven't got all year.

if not,

then please don't expect me to chase after pavements all over again.

2010-06-28T19:04:00.002+08:00

First day of school after the June break was good but rather exhausting. Guess you can never get used to the fact that either homework will make you slump down on your seat or Examinations will make you lose hair. HAHAH!

WYLDFIRE'S SATURDAY BUKIT TIMAH HILL HIKE WAS AWESOME!(;

Thank God for the great weather & the strength.

To God be the glory!<3

P/S, RAWR, stop teasing me... LOL!

2010-06-24T23:44:00.002+08:00

hint hint ^_^

2010-06-24T23:22:00.002+08:00

Well, i guess sleep over with Besteey slash finally bonding time got cancelled due to HER being so....................... okay, i shall shut up.
i shall be an understanding Bestfriend because i love her.
smile, AJ(;

ANYWAY,
June break is ending in 3days already! Oh my, how time just flew by without a goodbye. (what crap) so tomorrow's another day at home, unless someone calls me up & asks to go out. hahah!

i'll be packing for Saturday's hike up the Bukit Timah Hill with Wyldfire! YAY! A mini camp will be held. it's been a while since i got down & dirty. & this camp shouts 'PREPARE TO HAVE FUN, GET WET & DIRTY & BE HAPPY!'

2010-06-23T22:30:00.003+08:00

i had a rather good afternoon with Faye, Ganeish & Adli. we had lunch at Lot1 & i also toured them around. i spent time with love-buddyFaye looking around a pet store, talking about Brownie & me getting a dog soon(;

&&&, just because of one JOKE, a stupiiiiid call happened! hahah, it was hilarious though.

P/s, but to tell you the truth, i like the 3words YOU said to me, even if it wasn't true. it still gave me a shock.
(nope, not 'i love you')

2010-06-22T21:57:00.003+08:00

Get well soon Ee(;

will be praying that your operation tonight would go well!

you may not be able to dance for a long time before you get used to your leg but someday, you'll be grooving to music once more. just keep holding on babe!

iheartchu!

2010-06-19T21:10:00.003+08:00

LAKERS WON THE NBA CHAMPIONSHIP 2010!!!! AWESOME!!

I'm back to being a straight hair girl(; YAY!

(but it looks weird at the moment. In time, in time...)

Awright, let's see... what shall i post about.

i still have to finish up my dang CH (grr!) & one more worksheet of Math. i'll finish it up on Monday. hahah. such a procastinator. i managed to finish up everything else but those two.

Anyway, i'm kind of waiting for Eos Oape to go online so i can ask her when she wants to sleepover next week. i don't want to bother sending her a text message because she won't bother replying ASAP. hahahah.

okayyyy, out of words.

2010-06-17T03:15:00.002+08:00

still awake.

&AJ said with a surprised tone, "Speaking of the devil!"

what a piss.

i could have guffawed sarcastically & let you hear it when you finally walked away but to tell you the truth, i was really shocked...

POP!

2010-06-15T02:15:00.002+08:00

I am still awake!

yes, still awake. i've been staying up pretty late nowadays watching TV & now using the computer...

i'm pretty bored right now & i hear weird sounds & it's HOT here & i'm lonelyyyy.

Besteey's such a bore (hahah), because her phone's useless so we have no means of communication.

Nurul & i chat on the phone instead

i might get a dog pretty soon. YAY!

i'm going shopping tomorrow. FINALLY!

i have yet to finish up my CH (grrrr!), one more Math worksheet & English construct sentences. RAWR!

&i have to deal with Youth Sunday & the dances that i have to be in charge with.

basically this is my here & now and my soon & there. WHAT?!

hahah. yeeesshhh.

i'm enjoying, really. just a bit goob-ed out.

P/S,

why the heck are you still talking about me & bringing me up into your conversations with other people when i don't even think of you anymore?

you complain that i talked a lot about you before & you get irritated but look at you now you MONKEY.

you're such a weirdo, do yo know that?

hahahah.

2010-06-08T19:13:00.002+08:00

Robert James Reid

Cho lovee!<3

Pinoy Big Brother, teen clash of 2010 is awesome!(;

2010-06-07T22:41:00.003+08:00

Hello(;

lets start from Friday, shall we?

while waiting for the girls after our classes on friday, i played the piano. just tripping around with some keys & totally forgot how hard it was to play the piano. i remembered the last time i ever actually played 'em was way back when i was a lil kid. heheh, felt nice but i'm a guitar girl now(; i wanna learn how to play the drums too. hahah.

went to OCC with Mr Siva & the Project Masquerade members to check out the Grand Ballroom for our Prom. it was really huge & it seemed perfect for the event. Abirah & i spent quality time together, checking out OCC's facilities & the bedrooms. Also one of the rarest moments i get to have with certain people like her & i'm grateful for that!(;

Saturday

Parents kept BUGGING me to wake up at 10am so that the whole family could eat at Mac together. grrr, i almost felt like sleeping at the park. hahah, it was already 10 but i didn't care! LOL. anw, right after our breakfast, i went back to sleep & woke up at 4 to get ready to go for P&W practice as Tras.

Sunday

Met Nina at Eunos 3hours before church to visit our dentist. she was going for another adjustment while i was there for the dentist to check on my teeth. i miss having braces because i honestly think that having retainers are more tedious to take care of. PLUS, braces are cuter(; LOL

& then church, still the best(;

went to eat dinner with my parents & their friends. hahah, i was in adult world for at least 3hours. it was cool because they talked about stuff i could relate to. &in the mean time, i read my brother's Daredevil comic book(;

Monday

woke up at 12 & started doing chores with the TV on right after i ate my Brunch. i'm the maid in the house now. studied till 7 & then painted my nails afterwards(; yay-ness.

i've been thinking a lot lately. God, Studies, relationships with the people around me, Studies again, the new dog i'm gonna get soon, etc.

P/S, THIS IS MY FUN SCHEDULE, btw:

3shopping dates with HMS & Abirah, Mom & Nina & Deanne

one sleepover with Besteey dearest &

Movie with Classmates

GLEE, love!

2010-06-02T22:38:00.003+08:00

okay, you know GLEE is still the BIG THING right now, right?

well yeah, so i just finished watching another episode of this AWESOME series. This episode was a bit chaotic but still inevitably one of the best because in this episode, it's all about reputation & such. so lovers split because of selfish reasons or past mistakes & such.

however my main point right now is that although my first thought of JESSIE in the show is gay & plastic & a show-off, i'm starting to like his character in the show. he's loveeee(; guess he really liked Rachel.

har har har, i'm probably talking crap here but i'm taking advantage of my eldest brother's MacPro since he's away in the Philippines. LOL, yes. i have it in my room(; HAH!

Anywayyy, there's another day of the June Class Program for the graduating pupils so i'm going to turn this off now.

till then, world.

2010-05-27T21:41:00.005+08:00

FEVERRRR, COUGHING, SNEEZING, SNIFFING, CLEARING THROAT,

but still eating famous Amos(;

don't even know why i bothered to come to school today. hahah, half of the class wasn't even there.

however, NYP came to talk about Direct School Admission so it was still worth it.

i'm just wondering if i should apply for DSA to SOTA, NAFA, La Salle or Poly instead.

will be praying about it then(;

2010-05-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

2010-05-21T20:25:00.004+08:00

this week in school has been the most exhausting one yet after the exams. would you think that after exams, you'd be resting & having some fun? NAH, because like what Mdm J exasperates on, "MYE has ended doesn't mean it's finally the end of the world you know!" ha ha. sheesssh.

so the councillors have been attending rehearsals to prepare us for the Student Council investiture day next monday. Finally, the sec 4s are stepping down! time to throw the ties up up in the airrrr. ha ha. it's not that i don't like being a councillor, i actually had most of the best memories being in the Council. it's just that i think i need to cut back on the commitments (ditto Eos). i really have to concentrate on my studies & place it as one of the tops of my priority list.

so just a few more days sec 4s, & we'll have a little bit more freedom. hee.

but speaking of studies, grades weren't that great. sigh.

i sucked BIG TIME for POA & MATH. grr. failed both. i can't believe i failed POA when i was sort of expecting to pass since i thought i did it quite well. oh well... & math! argh, math. i really have to buck up. it's so irritating when you you know you've been doing so well during class but when it comes to the real Exam papers, it's a failure. @Q#$@#%#$%!#$. ha ha. okay, so i'm working extra hard now.

fortunately, i passed my other subjects.(; i got an A1 for English, an A2 for CH, a C5 for Science ( Physics paper was a bit of a bummer because of my section B) & OMG, i passed my Malay B! hahah, that was quite unexpected since i just took it like 2months ago.

i thank God for giving me good grades & even the knowledge he gave me to answer the questions. as well as for the courage to keep trying(;

God has never disappointed me, & i trust Him that everything has a reason(;

ANYWAYYYY, tomorrow! Wyldfire youth gathering(;

i cried, because i'm just a wall to you, despite the facts... how pethetic of me actually.

2010-05-15T23:08:00.001+08:00

THE MAKING OF THE ECLIPSE.

i can't help it, i love Twilight. i'm a huge fan(;

2010-05-15T21:26:00.002+08:00

Twilight Saga: Eclipse on Oprah! (;

(check out the part 5 of the interview. the movie clip is awesome!)

2010-05-14T11:32:00.003+08:00

MID YEAR EXAMINATIONS ARE OVER!

well, okay almost. hahaha.

there's still Malay Papers left. Besteey & i were suppose to take it today but it was postponed to monday since we were only informed yesterday morning. hahah.

MYE really killed me. studied non-stop. also fell asleep in the middle of studying. hahah.

but i pray it will all pay off(;

i'm finally at home, resting & using the computer.

currently also thinking of what to wear for this afternoon's movie with friends. we're going to watch The Last Song(; although i don't really like Miley Cyrus, i think i'll love her movie.

RESULTS on monday!

scared? i guess so... but i did do my best for ALL papers. i did my part, so i'm leaving the rest to God. GO GOD!(;

anyway, nothing to post about. bye.

2010-05-11T17:30:00.003+08:00

MID YEAR EXAMINATIONS

it's stressing everyone out.

but i'll do my part, & leave the rest to God.

have faith & work hard everyone.

"trust in the Lord with all your heart, & lean not on your own understanding."

updates after MYE.

2010-05-07T22:11:00.001+08:00

can you believe that he's Robert Downey Jr, the Iron Man when he was hot hot hot younggggg! lolll.

he's still hot(;

i'll marry his young self. hahah.

2010-05-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

it's been a year already

wow.

fast. very fast.

but all's well that ends well.

2010-05-02T14:36:00.003+08:00

location: YMCA church lobby

it's May. it's May. it's May...

flash backs? no.
looking back? no.

not at all. i'm just amazed at how fast time had flown & how it's still flying fast.
it's going to be the 6th of May, & i'm wondering what might happen on that day. most probably nothing, but i'm pretty sure something small is going to happen. &i'll be the one who will make it happen. unfortunately, it's going to take me a whole lot of thinking to do & a whole lot of courage to write.
i'm taking that risk again. for the very last time, but i'm scared so i'm not going to hope or expect anything. i'll still go on with my life, it's not going to affect me. so if there's a reply, then yay. if there isn't, then ok.

Besteey, help me with this k. i need you, right by my side as i write.

P/s,
eye-candy... i don't want to talk to you anymore. hahah. i d k, i just feel like it's all so stupid. so oh well. (;

2010-04-28T10:23:00.001+08:00

2010-04-28T09:14:00.002+08:00

i'm stuck at home for the morning & you must be wondering why i'm at home in the first place, huh. well, i wanted to wake up at 4am to continue my revision for today's CH class test & English Prelim Oral (don't worry, it's in the afternoon) but after falling asleep again, i found myself being woken by my mom who said that it was already 6.30! shocked with fresh confusion, i looked at my watch & calculated the time i had left to prepare & reach school; NONE. ha ha.

that's one disadvantage of living very far from home because not even the fastest transport system in the country can bring you to your destination on time. RAWR. i suggested to my parents that i could be ready by 6.45 & get a cab but they said that it's still not worth it since i'll still be late anyway. i don't want to be late so they said i should just stay home. hee, OKAY.

i'll miss my CH class test but at least i'll still be able to take my Prelim English Oral. i'll retake my CH class test next week then.

i couldn't go back to sleep so i used my time to draw out a schedule for my N levels on a piece of A3 size paper & pasted it on my wall, together with some posters of my favourite celebrities & pictures of HMS. ha ha. i even drew my name on my wall!

then i don't know what came over me but i even started to clean the house. like seriously clean it; washed the dishes from yesterday's pastoral meeting, swept the floor, watered the plants, & wiped the tables clean!

aww, aren't i just the sweetest?(; LOL.

i've done everything i can think of for now. perhaps after i use the computer, i'll study again for my English Oral then i'll just be on time to get ready to go to school.

so ttyl!

2010-04-24T18:07:00.003+08:00

sorry about the previous post. it was just a spur of the moment. a piss in the potty. i was just quite irritated at something.

Anyway, i have just finished studying for 3hours & completed my homeworks. i'm doing pretty good, but i still really have to start studying more for my Chemistry. grr, i'm starting to suck at it. never did you know. when i got my recent test paper back, i flunked it really badly. sheesh, like what's happening to my Chemistry man? everything's good except for that. stupid atoms & molecules. ha ha. oh well, strive! i can do it(;

by the way, Project Masquerade is APPROVED! YES! to all members, it's APPROVED! so we really have to find a great place for it to happen, k(;

okay, hmm... what else to say.

OH YEAH. my parents are in Jakarta to preach in a Church there. they left this morning & they'll probably be back on monday.

Take care mom & dad. i love you! be a great instrument for God over there & Go Fish!

okay lahh, i want to watch my favourite Filipino shows.

P/S, Dear you, i said my part already. HUG.

2010-04-23T20:57:00.005+08:00

I HATE IT WHEN SOMEBODY TRIES TO BE THE CONTRADICTOR BETWEEN YOU & THE PERSON YOU ADMIRE. IT'S LIKE HE/SHE IS TRYING TO RUIN EVERY CHANCE OF YOU CREATING SOMETHING WITH HIM FOR HELL ONLY KNOWS WHY.

if you know that i like him, don't sway him away from me by trying to tell him about some other girl. i know lahh, he likes her.

but i mean C'MON! lemme be the one to take the risk without you spoiling every chance & effort of mine. please, i beg of you...

i suppose some of you have no idea what i'm talking about. never mind, don't ask.

2010-04-23T20:46:00.002+08:00

Besteey & i had a short date together due to some circumstances my Besteey was furiously dealing with. ha ha. but at least we enjoyed our Swensens treat.

i spent the rest of my time with some of the guys.

yeah, it was my first time becoming like Faye. ha ha. no offence. i was suddenly the one staying behind with the guys. i watched them bounce the ball on their heads & kicking it towards the wall one by one. it wasn't much but i had fun laughing at their stupid dives, etc.

sigh, but i wanted my Besteey beside me... after all, we were suppose to spend time together till the end. oh well, i'm still alive(;

MALAY B WAS POSTPONED! yay!(;

but MID YEARS are still around the corner. tsk.

2010-04-20T18:20:00.005+08:00

hello(; i am secretly blogging. ha ha. i'm not suppose to use the computer during weekdays so hush about this k. hee.

Anyway, i guess this week's starting out fine after all & not much is holding us back late, unless it's us who are making the decision to study after school. Yes, so even though we don't go home early, we use our time to study. it's called putting our time to good use. he he.

i just came home from studying at Mac with Hazirah & Besteey. for at least 2hours, we studied quietly, only talking if we need anything & that's pretty cool. Nurul & Suhaillah joined after 2hours of studying but the three of us just started playing the fool.

YEAH! Hazirah & Besteey are the mean-est bunch of girls. ha ha. they kept drawing & drawing & drawing & i kept whining & whining & whining. RAWR. lol. don't ask what they drew k? it's embarrassing. ha ha.

but i love them. & it's funny because we're always the same bunch of girls spending time together. i don't mind, i like it. YAY.

P/S; to you,

if you actually do read my blog, i just wanted to say that i'm sorry if it's getting a little out of hand. i don't wanna make it a BIG deal anyway. i hope you don't mind though & don't worry, i won't do nuts about it if i feel that i'm being stupid. ha ha. but for now, i do. i d k why but i actually do. i know, weird right? LOL. (;

P/S/S,

MALAY 'B' MID-YEAR EXAM IS THIS FRIDAY!

THE REST ARE NEXT WEEK ALREADY!

GO AJJJJJJJ!!(;

2010-04-18T21:33:00.002+08:00

GRR! My new LG GT505 phone's camera sucks!

i mean, it rocks. it's 5 Mega Pixels for goodness sake but whenever i try taking a picture, it ends up with an error.

& i don't know if i can send it for repair since my warranty card lasts for only 7 days since the sold day. sigh...

i'm troubled?

1) because i let down somebody.

2) tsk! EYE-CANDY, you're so hard to ponder. i don't know what to do with my feelings.

OKAY, NO! nothing. i shall do nothing.

P/S, another hectic week i suppose?